Interview with Anya Millar
A lovely young woman, I believe her name was Peony, led me out onto the veranda of the beautiful home that is the House Millar. The charming Mistress Anya was already waiting on me. She even though of my human needs – a snack and drink were laid out on the small table beside the empty chair. Once I was settled Anya offered me tea as I thanked her for this rare opportunity.
Thank you for allowing me this inside peek into what makes you, you.
You are quite welcome. I don’t mind speaking to others as long and they remember the rules. *wink* Though, you have to by default, being human and all.
True. I’ll start off with an easy one. You’re a vampire?
Yes. Though I’m an aberration in my world. I refuse to kill humans just to live. I am not fluffy though – so do not underestimate me or those you see that live here. We are lethal when we need to be but humans are off the diet.
What do you do for a living?
For a living? Hum, well… I am independently wealthy thanks mostly to my beloved, Nicholas, who took care of all my finances while I was away for about three decades. I also head the House Millar, though that doesn’t exactly bring me money.
Are any other people living with you? Who are they?
Ha-ha. Of course there are. I have a House not just a house. Declán and Nicholas live upstairs with me. Also, Jonathan and Amber, Geoffrey and Peony, and most recently Louie and Simon stay in the house. I used to live with Star, my adoptive-mom, but she didn’t move to New York with us. She does visit though. *smile* We have two human friends that do not live with us but that are under our protection – Kayla, Declán’s twin sister and her girlfriend, Skye.
One of your numbers here is a human, correct?
Yes. Declán is human. Well, a Guardian which is a type of human I suppose you could say. He is soft and warm, though more lethal than most would imagine. He and Nicholas are my guards as well as my loves.
Normally I would ask you about your childhood and development but as I understand it, you have no memory of such things. Is that true?
Yes. Due to a depraved series of events I have, as Jonathan explained it, trauma based amnesia – exceedingly rare for a vampire. I occasionally have memory flashes where I do regain bits and pieces of who I was but trust me, not knowing is far superior to those flashes! I could happily not have another as long as I exists and be perfectly happy.
*Noting the pain in Anya’s voice and face I try to redirect for a moment* What makes you happy now?
Nicholas and Declán! I could not have dreamed up two better or loving men. They are everything to me. Each has different things about them that attract me but I am so truly blessed by the gods to have them in my life and heart.
Do you have an unusual ability? One that is unusual to other vampires?
Yes. Well, I’m unusual in many ways but the main one you are inquiring about – I think – is my voice. Nicholas says it’s drastically different and more powerful now than it was when he knew me the first time.
What is your greatest fear?
That would have to be losing Declán. I know it will happen, problem of being a human, but he puts himself in danger by being around all of us. Worse though is that he is a Guardian, a vampire hunter, and that tends to endanger his continued existence.
Would it be easier if you knew you would see him grow old naturally and die peacefully?
No. In theory it should but losing him no matter the circumstances is horrid to me. Nicholas is just the same though he tends to deal with Declán’s combat training and use better than I – or at least he pretends to… I wonder some days.
What about the fact you have two loves? Are they involved also?
Yes, I love both Nicholas and Declán. If you want to know more about our relationship you will just have to read ‘Blood’s Voice.’ Sorry.
As to their relationship… you will have to ask them. While I do know the answer, a relationship, no matter what kind, should only be spoken about from one of those involved.
Fair enough. What would you change about yourself if you could?
Most would think I would say my vampirism but in truth, I’d rather change my mental instability. I don’t actually mind being a vampire, even with all the pain and torment I receive for being an aberration in my world.
What is one thing that you have never told anyone?
Well now, if I tell you that it would mean it’s no longer available to answer. *grins* Seriously, I don’t really keep secrets from those I love so if you’ve read my story so far in ‘Blood’s Voice’ you already know what’s inside me. Well, as well as I even know myself, that is. Being without a memory and slightly twisted means I don’t always know quite what I’m thinking.
One last question then. Based on your morals being so strict about not killing, how do you feel about what you’ve done either while in a memory flash or while rescuing your one love? Thankfully you didn’t have to rescue them both!
I don’t like to kill. It’s part of why I’m looked down on in the vampire world. The catch to that is I am very good at killing. With rare exception I do not feel guilt about the death I have caused because they were not worthy of life, in my opinion. That is a bit harsh, I know, but seriously… how can I feel guilty for stopping someone that kills indiscriminately and revels in causing others pain? But even with that said, I am only dangerous to those that would harm humans or my family. As you will find out in the next book Áine is writing about my House, I can play nice with others, when they keep their fangs to themselves.
One that note I think I will retire. I can see your loves waiting, patiently, for you at the edge of the veranda. I know you have things to do. Thank you again for taking time out of your busy schedule to visit with me and those that would like to know more about you.
The pleasure was mine. Declán will walk to out. While none in my House would nibble on you, there are others out there that don’t have the best manners. *wink*